Friday, December 19, 2008
PUNISH ME ALREADY!
I looked at this picture of me today. This was in the 9 day wait after transfer after my 2nd IVF. In this picture, I'm sorta the "p" word. The embie was hanging in there. We had such a good time on our trip to the mountains. It was exactly what I needed to keep my mind off the transfer. Maybe that's why it sorta worked! Or was it the weight loss. Or did I kill my child on some crazy exercise equipment I just HAD TO TRY.
Lord, PLEASE HELP MY MIND TO STOP PUNISHING ME! Please help me to let this go. Please help me to know that there was NOTHING I could do. I know it in my head, but please share it with my heart. Please remind me that I don't always know what's best and that the path you have chosen for me is perfect for ME. Please give me patience and peace.