Isaiah 40:31

"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings as eagles. They shall walk and not be weary, they shall run and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

Friday, August 29, 2008

Quick Run Down

hey Ya'll,
Been a BUSY week. No internet at home. We just won't go there!
Went and had SIS and HSG. It was okay, not as bad as expected. Not as bad as the first time, thats for sure. I have a "beautiful uterus", confirmed by the radiologist and RE. Also I have a "beautiful long cervix", something I've never been told before. All I asked in the end was "Is it a good place for an embie?" Everyone said, YES! We've just got to get you to fresh transfer.
So I'm walking more, eating even better, and TRYING to do whats hopefully best taking care of my body. Feeling a bit sluggish and weird with the noovah ring this go around. I can definitely tell that I'm retaining water. Although, I go tinkle like 3-4 times a night. But no doubt my feet are getting fat and thats the first sign. Oh do I remember the big fat feet that accompanied all the other treatments in the past. I hope that doesn't mean that my estrogen is skyrocketting? Anyone know?
Got my calendar and looks like, if all goes well, we should have the BetaHCG around Oct 8 or 9. SHEESH thats a long time to wait. BUT, I did ask if we could go on a little road trip after the supposed transfer, as long as I'm not in the hospital. I got a thumbs up and they said it actually might be good for me.
I've got a post brewing about the actual day of the SIS/HSG but don't have time to put it all down right now. Maybe over the long holiday weekend. :)
Hope ya'll have a good one!

Monday, August 18, 2008


Today is cd2. I go on Wednesday (cd4) for baseline bloodwork and ultrasound. Its been awhile since I referred to days in my life as cd (cycle days). It feels strange to be going down this path again. I am apprehensive. I wouldn't be telling the truth if I didn't tell you that.
For some strange reason, there is a certain amount of comfort to starting this process again as well. Its sort of like watching old Andy Griffith episodes. Yeah, of course you know how bad Aunt Bea's pickles are and you know that if Barney gets hold of a gun with a bullet, he will have some reason for shooting at his feet. But whenever you see a re-run, you are at a different point in your life, so you might catch these small subtle details about it that you didn't see the first time. I'm hoping that this go around, I have the same great results of the IVF, but that I also make it to a fresh transfer without the OHSS and hospitalization.
Goals for this week are to breathe in and out, put one foot in front of the other, and to really take one step at a time. Also, next Monday, I'm going to go in for my SIS and HSG. Just one step at a time.........

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Curly Hair?

Okay, strange thing I saw on the mornin' show. Do people like people with curly or straight hair better? Several theories. Men preferred straight, and the men didn't know why. I heard several references to Curly="wild". Okay, I'm not wild. I'm no where near wild. I had curly hair when I was little. Then it went straight. Then it went curly and hasn't changed a bit. I've used those crazy straightening irons, I end up looking like someone stuck my finger in a light socket!
So this is me, take it or leave it. Only good redeeming thing about it was that they said in a professional atmosphere, curly haired people were more articulate. Okay, I will take that. Bad with men, good with Jobs.... What do ya'll think?

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Monday's RE appt

okay, no nifty title for today's post. Just the facts today. All went well at RE's office other than the incredible wait of over an hour. I have to re-do some of my tests (SIS, HSG) because too much time has lapsed since the last time I did them. LOVELY! Oh how I love dye shot in the whooo haaaa la la la.... This time, I'm going to take the MAXIMUM dosage of NSAID's possible. I didn't get too much info on how this is going to go. I wait for Auntie Flo. I go in for baseline blood work. I start the NOOVAH-Ring for 21 days. Then I get AF? Unclear on this one. Then I start the Lupron. Then like 5 days of lupron, and then the stims. After that, monitoring then watch the follies grow, then schedule the retrieval yada yada. Yeah yeah, I got this.
So I'm scared. I'm scared that I will end up in the hospital again with OHSS. I know I will get some degree of it, but the hope is that it is minimal. I plan on continuing the exercise (swimming and walking) and eating well (lots of fruits and veggies) and WATER! RE also suggested some massage therapy for well being. AHHHH I'll take ya up on that one, Doc!
So last IVF, I got all the way to the end, then the rug was snatched out from under me and I didn't get to transfer my beautiful embies. They were growing, with no place to go. They were good enough for fresh transfer, but didn't meet freeze criteria. Ehhh, I've got to stop thinking about them. This is a new day!
If you pray, please pray for us. If you do voodoo, do that voodoo that you do for some good JUJU for me! I'm calling on all good thoughts, vibes, and prayers!

Friday, August 1, 2008

New Leaf

Alright, ya'll all know that I am always trying some new way to be positive. Then I spiral down into the pits then back up again. Well I'm trying a new thing out.
I've been watching Joyce Meyer, and she is kicking my tushie to get me going in the right direction. I'm going to the RE on Monday. A bit nervous, but going nevertheless. I'm about to embark on my 2nd IVF and I am scared. I'm scared of the emotional stuff, and I'm scared of the physical stuff. SHEESH, I shudder to think of either one. But Angel is by my side, and he will help me when I get down, thank GOODNESS!
But I think the thing that is going to help me the most is for me to stop letting the actions of others affect how I feel. My MIL is not going to be in my head anymore! She is going to do her thing, I'm going to do mine. Some of the super INSENSITIVE people that I've been around that have said terrible things about ART or IF, well they can just KISS IT!! And I'm not going to get bogged down with it anymore. Just got to let it go, like Daddy used to say, "Like water off a duck's back". I've got to forgive and FORGET. I always have done the forgiving, but didn't forget for fear that they might do it again to me. Well, I am the master of MY FEELINGS and no one is going to MAKE me feel like anything.
Okay, rant is OVER. I hope ya'll have a great weekend. I've got a few plans that involve a lot of relaxing by the pool this weekend. Looking so forward to it. God Bless!