Isaiah 40:31

"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings as eagles. They shall walk and not be weary, they shall run and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

Friday, August 1, 2008

New Leaf

Alright, ya'll all know that I am always trying some new way to be positive. Then I spiral down into the pits then back up again. Well I'm trying a new thing out.
I've been watching Joyce Meyer, and she is kicking my tushie to get me going in the right direction. I'm going to the RE on Monday. A bit nervous, but going nevertheless. I'm about to embark on my 2nd IVF and I am scared. I'm scared of the emotional stuff, and I'm scared of the physical stuff. SHEESH, I shudder to think of either one. But Angel is by my side, and he will help me when I get down, thank GOODNESS!
But I think the thing that is going to help me the most is for me to stop letting the actions of others affect how I feel. My MIL is not going to be in my head anymore! She is going to do her thing, I'm going to do mine. Some of the super INSENSITIVE people that I've been around that have said terrible things about ART or IF, well they can just KISS IT!! And I'm not going to get bogged down with it anymore. Just got to let it go, like Daddy used to say, "Like water off a duck's back". I've got to forgive and FORGET. I always have done the forgiving, but didn't forget for fear that they might do it again to me. Well, I am the master of MY FEELINGS and no one is going to MAKE me feel like anything.
Okay, rant is OVER. I hope ya'll have a great weekend. I've got a few plans that involve a lot of relaxing by the pool this weekend. Looking so forward to it. God Bless!


Jendeis said...

Wishing you so much luck on this journey.

It's important to have boundaries and to remember that a lot of the time you can prevent people from hurting you by not allowing them into your "space." I tell John Dear to imagine that he has an invisible bubble or force field around him and that his family and their craziness can't get in.

KimboSue said...

Yeah for you!