I imagine that when normal preggos go into the OB's office, its all fun and giggles. I go in apprehensively thinking,"when can I see the heartbeat or hear the heartbeat". "Shuttup, I need confirmation that all is okay."
Praise the Lord, today I got that confirmation. After only 2 long weeks, I don't know how the regulars do it, I heard our Stickie's heartbeat. It was wonderful! After my progesterone got reinstated, I had some apprehension that my level had dropped too low, and something might have happened. But all seems well. I finally found out after much anguish that my second level taken 2 days after going back on the endomet..rin was 40. So I went from 14 to 40 in 2 days. No wonder I was weepy! At least I'm not losing it!
So I've got a few more weeks of the endo and I'm weaning off of metformin and my antidepressant. It was funny, OB #2 (there are 3 in the practice and I saw #2 today), she asked WHY I was on it. I said, have you ever had 5 years of infertility? She said, "Enough said." I like this straight forward attitude that this group of drs seem to have. Now, their nursing staff has a lot to be desired. I think they are totally over worked. But as far as the Drs are concerned, I feel comfy with really all 3 of them. Which is great, since I don't know who I'll get for the delivery time.
So I go back to the OB in 2 weeks. I hope that Angel can come with me this next time. He hasn't ever HEARD the heartbeat. It will be special for him, I know. He is really becomming the best father. I'm in awe watching him evolve day by day. Me, I'm still stunned that this is really happening. So much so that I can't concentrate on what really needs to be done.
Oh and because of my PCOS and Insulin Resistance, she wants to do a 1 hr GTT in a couple weeks rather than waiting for the 24 week mark. I'm fine with that. I'd like to know if there is going to be a problem. Get this under control ASAP!
Amisdt all the glory of hearing Stickie's heartbeat, I heard the lady across the hall in the ultrasound room. The walls are paper thin, and I couldn't help but over hear her sobbing. I'd seen this couple in the waiting room just moments earlier. They were so full of hope and promise. But on the ultrasound, I'm assuming their first, they didn't see a heartbeat. It really made me want to run in there and hug them both. I wanted to sob right along with her. When I got in the car, I held the steering wheel real tight, and said a sincere prayer for them. It will be a long road for them. I pray for their peace. It just reminded me that at this point, I still have a long way to go, and a lot to be thankful for.