Isaiah 40:31

"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings as eagles. They shall walk and not be weary, they shall run and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

Monday, October 13, 2008

Not meant to be

Its a biochemical pregnancy. I stop the hormone supplements and wait for the inevitable to happen.

I'm actually okay. No tears shed, yet. Its been fun for a few days. Dreaming and hoping.

I have to say, if we didn't have the "6 pack" of frozen embies, I think I would call it quits. 5 years is long enough. But we owe it to them to give it a try. Just not right now.

I've never been this far before. Never gotten a positive Beta. It gave me a new sense of hope, well and disappointment. No regrets. Just going to move on.

Angel has got a good ole Southern supper ready for me when I get home. I'm looking forward to some SOUL FOOD!

5 comments:

soapchick said...

So sorry Hollie, but you are handling it like a champ! Hug your Angel extra tight tonight. I'm glad you got some HOPE out of the deal! Hugs to you.

Chelle said...

I have been waiting for your post... I am so sorry. I am proud of you for being so strong though. You have gotten farther than you have every gotten before so maybe next time you will go all the way!

((HUGS!!))

littlezen said...

I'm so sorry. I do know what you're saying about the embryos. I have similar feelings.

If we're not sucessful I'm pursuing adoption after this. I can try to get pregnant w/said embryos aftewards because I want 2 children.

Leah said...

I'm so, so sorry.

Patricia said...

I'm so sorry this is happening. And I understand the days of hope, as well. Be well, blog when you can, and know that you are in my prayers.