Getting settled into our new normal life. Lets just say, the whole thing hasn't been how I expected it to be. However, in His infinite wisdom, God has provided an exciting new life for us, and for that I will forever be eternally grateful. I tried not to have too many preconcieved notions of how the birth would go, etc, so that I wouldn't be disappointed if it didn't go that way. That being said... here we go!
Oct 5, 2009 (Our 7th anniversary)- We went to the dr. She suggested that we go to the hospital for an ultrasound to check out and see how big our lil man was. Dr said that if he was over 8 pounds (estimate) that she was pretty sure I wouldn't be able to deliver him vaginally. The estimate came in at 7 pounds 12 oz. So she said we could induce on Wednesday (Oct 7) and see how it went.
Oct 7, 2009- at Hospital at 6:30am. I wasn't the least bit dialated, but lil man was head down. Started Cervadil (to try to dialate my cervix) and inserted foley catheter bulbs to speed up process. Started having contractions about 12Noon. They weren't very intense, however, they never let up! I couldn't catch a break! Every 2-4 min, SOMETHING was going on, with varying intensity as well. By 9pm, I had my epidural. They started Pitocin. I contracted all night and by 6:20am (Oct 8), I hadn't made enough progress and she didn't think he would decend. Im a big girl, but her prediction of my pelvis being small was correct. So at 7am, I was whisked to the OR for a c-section and at 7:08, we welcomed our miracle man into this world.
I didn't realize how hard the first week would be. I would just cry, for no reason. I hate that feeling, not being in control. But Angel assured me over and over again to let it go and that it would pass. I can't tell you what a blessing Angel has been in all of this. We truly have a 50/50 parenting style. He couldn't be a better father.
On a note, yeah, Im going to go there. We could have quit, we could have given up. I knew we were going to be parents, although I had no idea how. IF this hadn't worked, I would have kept on going pursuing parenthood. AND (my I told you so moment to Angel) the pride and LOVE I see when Angel holds his son, is immeasurable. It IS EVERYTHING I knew it was going to be. It is like seeing God in our midst. Im not saying that this route is the best for everyone, quite the contrary. But for us, I let go, I let God deliver this miracle to us in His own time and in His way. It has been an amazing journey, thus far and I can't wait to see what miracles unfold for us in the near future. I have forgotten much of the hard part of getting here, I guess you block that part out. But I will never forget the amazing women I've met along the way that carried me so many times through encouraging words in their own blogs or comments on mine. This isn't a goodbye, but rather a THANK YOU.