Humbled and blessed

That is the only way to describe this feeling. I am amazed that my OHSS is being kept at bay. I'm amazed that I made it to the day I had been dreaming about for so long, TRANSFER DAY! I'm so thankful that we had not only 2 beautiful embies to transfer, but we had 6 to freeze! I'm so blessed that Angel has really been an amazing man, husband, and friend in the last few weeks. I'm most blessed to see God working so boldly in our lives right now. Leaves me at a loss for words....

I used to think that all this was work. For me, now, I see it as a journey. One that I am thankful that I have taken. I'm glad its behind me, but better having experienced it. If the outcome is positive, of course I will be overjoyed! If it is negative, I will cry 'til the tears won't fall anymore. Either way, I'm just blessed to be where I am right now, right this very minute. I'm loved, I'm healthy, and I am happy. I feel like I got my degree in IF! The cap is being tossed as I type!



Thanks to all of you for your help and encouragement. It has all meant so much. After each step, I just had to rush to get to the blog to tell all my pals about what happened. Thank you isn't enough.

Sheer Amazement!

Thank you for all the comments and notes of encouragement. They are all such a blessing.

I'm incredibly upbeat today. Yesterday, I tried to go to work. It took me 2 hours to get ready. But I went. I stayed for a whopping 2 hours, and my boss told me to go home. On my way home, the nurse called. We had 16 embies yesterday all dividing well. Then I told her about my symptoms and she said I should come to the office today so we could get a baseline idea of how bad the OHSS could/would be. So I napped yesterday, ate lots of protein, limited my fluid intake, and today I feel better.

We still went into the office this morning. Got all checked out. Haven't heard from the bloodwork, but I feel better and the ultrasound didn't show anything that lead them to believe I shouldn't go ahead with the transfer on Sunday, as planned. My ins and outs are still pretty much equal, thanks to the increased protein. That will keep me breathing well. Its a chore, but its SO WORTH IT!

While I was in the office, the nurse called and left today's fertilization report on my voice mail. Here is the kicker! Yesterday, we had 16 embies. Today we have 17! One caught up with the others! OMG!! Never in a million years did I expect an increase. All I can say is that its a miracle. There is no rhyme or reason, only God. I don't know why, but I'll take whatever He decides to give us.

My BHcG will be 2 days after our 6th anniversary. I've just now been able to actually look that far ahead. I think we might actually make it. We are so close.... please God, Give us your blessings.

Fertilization Report, #1

hey Ya'll,
I had 29 eggs aspirated yesterday. Out of 29, 26 were mature. All of those were ICSI'd. Out of those, 16 are "fertilizing correctly". Its possible (so they say) that there might be more and they are a little behind. The Embryologist only looks at them once a day, so that they can leave them alone to do their thing. I'm excited and so grateful. Its almost unreal. I know it is still very early, so much can still happen, for the good and the bad. Just trying not to get too far ahead of myself. STILL taking it one day at a time.
As for the hyperstim situation, I'm not out of the woods. Evidently it can start as early as retrieval day but peaks at 7dp retrieval. I'm slightly short of breath and have gained 3 pounds. Thankfully, I'm still urinating and just feel a bit worn out. We always knew I would have OHSS, we are just trying to minimize the symptoms.
I will report when I know more. It means so much to me that I can share this with such wonderful people that really care. Thank you isn't enough, but THANK YOU.

Second Verse, much like the first

ER went well. I got 29 eggs, don't know how many were mature. We will find out tomorrow of course how many fertilized.
We left the house this morning at 5am. Uneventful drive 2 1/2 hours. We got to the RE office. She said "Sign In". Okay, so we did. She said "so you are here for cryoscreen bloodwork, go to the lab". I said "No, I'm here for Egg Retrieval". Long story short, I was fairly disappointed several times at the clinic today. Seemed like the Mickey Mouse club. Things just didn't go smoothly with paperwork and made me second guess things because there were so many little simple mistakes. When $10,000 and our future children are on the line, makes me a bit upset if they drop the ball. I know they do it every day, but TODAY was MY day! Also, something was weird with the anesthetic. I felt EVERYTHING. I was totally coherent and every time she plucked or poked, I felt it, BIG TIME! What made me the most upset was that before we went in, I said that last time, I "woke up" twice and felt the pain. They assured me that they were using a different anesthetic and it wouldn't happen again. Obviously I wasn't in any kind of state to raise heck about it, but you better believe I'm going to have a talk with the RE about it.
I'm hurting a bit in my abdomen, but I believe it is to be expected. I'm going to take the day off tomorrow and rest these ovaries. Should hear the fertilization report tomorrow by noon. I'm excited to hear for sure.
Thank you so much for all of your well wishes and prayers. You will never know how much I appreciate them all.

Retrieval Tomorrow

Hi Ya'll,
Quick update. My ER is tomorrow. I'm nervous, obviously. Just one step closer to where I got derailed last go around. I'm praying that my follies contain good eggs and that they fertilize. I hate all this "what if" stuff. I will let ya'll know whats going on when I get home tomorrow, if I'm feeling like firing up the ole 'puter.
Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. Keep them up.